Been MIA for a while! Sorry!
But, 2018 has been a bunch of highs, and a constant low is threatening to shroud all of the positive things going on. I alluded to the break up last month, when it was still fresh. Unfortunately, I widened the wound after last week and feel like I’m back at the starting line. It’s like my progress went from 10 to 1.
And while my heart is (again) hurt, sad, and angry, my mind is trying very hard to get the heart to wake up and move on. I know I can’t force it and that it will take time, but the fact that the rational part of me is popping up makes it slightly easier to let go.
One thing that’s helping me get through this is John Mayer’s music. I’m thankful that he’s had so many breakups (never mind that he was the dumper in…most of them?), and made music that I need right now.
I met with a dietician today to discuss my diet, namely what to eat to reduce joint pain and inflammation due to RA.
Melissa, the dietician, gave me recipes and told me what foods to start eliminating, and to do this in small steps. One item that I’m going to have a hard time giving up is processed food (I told her McDonald’s was my favorite fast food chain). In addition, no Cheetos and chips for me anymore…
So my new “diet” (we’re doing the elimination diet to figure out what’s causing the pain and inflammation) is:
-No gluten (this one’s going to be hard also since everything has this)
-Eat more fruits
However, with these restrictions, Melissa also told me what foods I can eat, based on what I already ate and what I was willing to try. For example, I’ve never eaten chickpeas but was willing to try them, so she gave a recipe to make them taste good. She made the process easy and wasn’t pushy about going completely vegan (like her), or being hardcore. Her philosophy was “I can suggest changes for you, but you can choose to try them or not.”
I left the meeting feeling motivated to change!
It was a good thing I saw a dietician, because when I was first diagnosed with RA I felt overwhelmed with what to change about my diet that I didn’t know where to start. But now I have a plan, and have to remember that I can’t do a big change like this overnight. I have a two week follow up with her, then after that, I’ll have access to her via text, email, in-person, and video conference.
I’m ready (and excited!) to start this new lifestyle change!
Have you seen a dietician before? Is your health better than it was prior to the meeting?
I subscribe to Yoga with Adriene’s weekly letter, and it’s sent to my inbox every Sunday. I like reading her letters because they’re encouraging and make me want to get on the mat.
Today’s letter was no different, and I needed her kind words.
And it was the following quote that hit me:
“Our love, which is our real self, doesn’t die, but merely goes underground.”
Whether you’ve lost yourself in the shuffle of work or other stressful situations, your real self is still there. Your self-esteem might’ve taken a hit, but it’s important to build it back up, and, once you do, you find who you are again. Adriene likens this quote to yoga, and that she uses the practice to find herself.
And, in a way, through the bending, breathing, and (sometimes) toppling over, yoga is doing the same for me.
When life makes you lose yourself, how do you find you again?